The Details

First off, in case I was not clear enough in the last post, or in case you missed it, I'M PREGNANT!

Here are a few details:

1. I am 13 weeks.  That puts me due the end of February, but I'm just planning on March since I've been late in the past and I am DETERMINED to wait it out as long as I have to this time without being induced.  (Maybe I should plan for April??)  Connor turns 2 the end of March and Eli turns 4 the end of April.
2. Yes, it was a surprise.  Meaning we were preventing (or, we thought we were preventing), and yet we got pregnant.
3. Yes, I was shocked.  When I realized my period was late (and I had been like clockwork), I started to panic for about 5 seconds and then I started listing all the reasons why it might be ok to have a baby now.  I figured if we got pregnant without even trying, there must be a reason.  I tend to think God always has a plan even if we're not informed of it right away. :)  Here was my list:
   1. I would be due right before Jeremy's 2.5 week Spring Break (longest one they've ever had at the school)
   2. I would get my entire 1st trimester over with down here in the South where I wasn't doing much anyway (so if I was sick I could just lay around)
   3. I would also have central AC during my 1st trimester - crucial in the summer
   4. Jeremy would only have one quarter of school left after the baby was born and it should be his easiest one ever - meaning we would have him around more than we probably will for the next 20 years!
4. Yes, we are thrilled!  After listing the reasons why it might be a good thing I found myself worried more that I wasn't pregnant than that I was.  Funny how quickly your mind can change!  Once I took a test and saw the positive result I panicked again for a second at the thought of having three children under the age of four (!), but mostly I was really excited.  And Jeremy of course was too.  :)
5. Yes and No, I have(n't) been sick.  I had a few weeks where I felt pretty yucky all the time, but it's been nothing like it has with the boys.  Who knows what that means?  I got more sick with Connor than I did with Eli, so I thought he was a girl, but you never know.  I have spent half of this pregnancy worrying because I'm not very sick and the other half just really really grateful!  I'm definitely tired a lot and have some other random pregnancy-related symptoms, but overall I've felt really good.  Hooray!

There are a few other things to work out.  We'll have to make sure all three kiddos can fit in the back of our Camry since we won't be able to afford a van until after school.  Anyone have tips for that?  And yes, I'm totally nervous about having THREE kids! That sounds so old and established.  Shouldn't I know what I'm doing by now?  I guess we'll figure it out as we go...

All in all though, I want to say how GRATEFUL I am to be able to bear children.  I am constantly overwhelmed by my blessings and how much I love my family.  I don't know why Heavenly Father allows it to be so hard for some to have children and so easy for others.  I feel guilty sometimes when I think about me getting pregnant in this way when so many of my dear friends have struggled for years to be able to get pregnant for the first time.  I don't know why that happens, but I want you to know that I truly consider it a privilege to be able to have children, and it's not something I take lightly.  I know it is a huge blessing and not one I take for granted.  We are richly blessed and are so excited for this next phase of life.  I am continually reminded that God does know what's best for us and even if His timing isn't our timing, it will all work out in the end.

Thank you for reading and thank you for all your kind comments and support!!!